寂寞在作祟

好想被好好拥抱...... 对象是谁好像没那么重要。 因为寻找的是一丝丝久违的温暖。

喜欢上他了吗？ 天知道。 我想只是寂寞在作祟吧。 我们不止不熟，就连想见面也不行。 相隔几千里，只能在虚拟世界里聊天。 我想这大概就是所谓的寂寞。 寂寞会让人产生幻想。 幻想着，下一秒会有人想要拥抱我，而拥抱我的正是那遥远的他。 偶尔的幻想会让人有喘息的时候，但愿有一天，我不需再幻想；但愿有一天，我可以拥有一个真正温暖的拥抱。

放手。捉紧。

很多事情，你越是捉得紧就越容易会失去。

放手或许是唯一的出路。可是，过程真的很辛苦。

身边就算出现了一个对你好的人，也不敢靠得太近。就算他心里没有你，也自私的决定要把他放进心底。

有时候想想，是不习惯吗？

就算再不习惯，在不舍得，也得放手，让他走... 深深知道，捉得再紧，也没有用。他只会越走越远。

愿大家的内心都平静。

孤单升华变寂寞

孤单与寂寞截然不同。

你要是孤单，找个人陪陪就好了；可你若寂寞，有再多的人陪，也依旧寂寞。

孤单升华会变寂寞。

所谓寂寞，就是打从心里觉得孤单......

我，会幸福吧？

最近的关系稍微变好了些。。

或许是我没那么计较了吧。。。

那天听朋友说起她们的朋友的爱情故事。。听着衰男人的点点滴滴。。

这才发现，他并没有好太多。。

一路以来我都知道，他爱自己甚于我。我真的以为我无所谓，我想我高估了自己。。

我还是会羡慕朋友找到一个体贴万分的男友。。

你说他不爱我吗？倒也不是。他要是不爱我还好办一些。。。

爱与恨，真的是一线之差而已。。

我偶尔爱他，偶尔恨他。。。就这样一支交错着。。我会不会精神分裂呢？

我问他结婚好吗？他却觉得我提出了个可笑的问题。。虽然最终，决定了要在两年以后，可我一点计划也看不见。。。

听不见吗？我心里的着急声。。总感觉两年以后还是一样。。。可是又能这么样呢？已经无路可退，只能赌这一把了。

要是两年以后我输了，也认了。

我，会幸福吧？

I don't understand...

I don't understand..
Is there anything wrong going out with my friends?
I am tired...tired of asking permissions...tired of making up excuses to you as to my friends.

Yea, you are of course more important. But why do you have to put me in the awkward situations every now and then? Are you trying to test my endurance level? Well, it's almost reaching red light.

Everytime if there're friends asking me out, the first thought in my head will be, "oh no, someone is gonna be angry and unhappy". "Ok, let's think of a lie to tell him so that I will be able to attend the outing". I am tired....

You have not met any of my friends. Yea, perhaps you will say I have not met yours as well (besides than our mutual friends). Don't you think this would be a problem?

Ok, I am indeed sorry that I cannot drive. But, is fetching me sometimes that difficult to you? It will be always until if no one can come fetch me then only you fetch me. I don't feel good actually. Perhaps I should say, I don't feel precious.

Ok, enough for today. I am really tired...

我恨我爱你

面带微笑离开你怀里 我听天由命
最后一张王牌在手里 二选一的机率
不能放纵爱你 就放过自己
爱情已经过了甜蜜期 多说也是无益
爱不爱我已经没关系 一点小伤而已
你可以很放心我不会为了留你假装可怜兮兮
都怪我 太不争气 我恨我爱你
Oh~ 我爱你只是因为你是你
Oh~ 我恨你
你有我看也看不清的小聪明
你有我说也说不完的坏脾气
你有我数也数不尽你的….新恋情

爱情已经过了甜蜜期 多说也是无益
爱不爱我已经没关系 一点小伤而已
你可以很放心我不会为了留你假装可怜兮兮
都怪我 太不争气我恨我爱你
Oh~ 我爱你只是因为你是你
Oh~ 我恨你
你有我看也看不清的小聪明
你有我说也说不完的坏脾气
你有我数也数不尽你的….新恋情

没关系…我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆
我可以一个人安静的忘记你
我恨你最后那一句我爱你

最近似乎爱上这首歌了。
对，是旧歌，也是看了星光大道才接触它。
我恨我爱你。。。多么深奥的说法。
爱得这般辛苦，还是继续爱。。。
爱到无法恨你，所以恨自己爱上了你。。。。

猪脚。。一拐一拐

I went to see 跌打 - "Tit Da" just now. I have been suffering from the thumb toe pain (right leg) got quite some time. To be more specific, it's actually the bone at the thumb toe side is like sticking out and whenever I wear a closed toe shoe, I will feel pain (even if it's a sport shoes). I did not go to see doctor. I thought if I stopped wearing closed toe shoes for some time, it will gradually recover. So, I have minimized wearing a closed toe shoes. But somehow, there are occasions that you will have to wear a closed toe shoe. And, lately I am in love with the closed toe heels...so if everytime I wear them, my leg will pain, I will be depressed about it for a long time...

Anyways, before I went to see the "Tit Da" si fu, I actually went to the clinic at my office building first. So silly, she actually told me "MAYBE your feet is like that by nature." Then I told her, it was not like that, just recently i feel the pain, i don't have this problem back then. Then she said "MAYBE when you grow older, your feet changed." So I asked, ok, then what should I do? She replied "Don't wear the shoes that make your feet hurts." Duh...as if I don't know.........but............................... you want me to wear "Ah Po" shoes for the rest of my life? I think i will choose the pain. Come on, no more shoppings for shoes? It's gonna be damn depressing.....

So, after work, I have decided to go try for "Tit Da". Hope it does help. After all, my leg has to be wrapped for at least 2 days. And I will gonna wear my mother's slippers to work tomorrow. I do really wish this will be the last time I am wearing that type of slippers..... *pray hard*