我，会幸福吧？

最近的关系稍微变好了些。。

或许是我没那么计较了吧。。。

那天听朋友说起她们的朋友的爱情故事。。听着衰男人的点点滴滴。。

这才发现，他并没有好太多。。

一路以来我都知道，他爱自己甚于我。我真的以为我无所谓，我想我高估了自己。。

我还是会羡慕朋友找到一个体贴万分的男友。。

你说他不爱我吗？倒也不是。他要是不爱我还好办一些。。。

爱与恨，真的是一线之差而已。。

我偶尔爱他，偶尔恨他。。。就这样一支交错着。。我会不会精神分裂呢？

我问他结婚好吗？他却觉得我提出了个可笑的问题。。虽然最终，决定了要在两年以后，可我一点计划也看不见。。。

听不见吗？我心里的着急声。。总感觉两年以后还是一样。。。可是又能这么样呢？已经无路可退，只能赌这一把了。

要是两年以后我输了，也认了。

我，会幸福吧？

I don't understand...

I don't understand..
Is there anything wrong going out with my friends?
I am tired...tired of asking permissions...tired of making up excuses to you as to my friends.

Yea, you are of course more important. But why do you have to put me in the awkward situations every now and then? Are you trying to test my endurance level? Well, it's almost reaching red light.

Everytime if there're friends asking me out, the first thought in my head will be, "oh no, someone is gonna be angry and unhappy". "Ok, let's think of a lie to tell him so that I will be able to attend the outing". I am tired....

You have not met any of my friends. Yea, perhaps you will say I have not met yours as well (besides than our mutual friends). Don't you think this would be a problem?

Ok, I am indeed sorry that I cannot drive. But, is fetching me sometimes that difficult to you? It will be always until if no one can come fetch me then only you fetch me. I don't feel good actually. Perhaps I should say, I don't feel precious.

Ok, enough for today. I am really tired...

我恨我爱你

面带微笑离开你怀里 我听天由命
最后一张王牌在手里 二选一的机率
不能放纵爱你 就放过自己
爱情已经过了甜蜜期 多说也是无益
爱不爱我已经没关系 一点小伤而已
你可以很放心我不会为了留你假装可怜兮兮
都怪我 太不争气 我恨我爱你
Oh~ 我爱你只是因为你是你
Oh~ 我恨你
你有我看也看不清的小聪明
你有我说也说不完的坏脾气
你有我数也数不尽你的….新恋情

爱情已经过了甜蜜期 多说也是无益
爱不爱我已经没关系 一点小伤而已
你可以很放心我不会为了留你假装可怜兮兮
都怪我 太不争气我恨我爱你
Oh~ 我爱你只是因为你是你
Oh~ 我恨你
你有我看也看不清的小聪明
你有我说也说不完的坏脾气
你有我数也数不尽你的….新恋情

没关系…我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆
我可以一个人安静的忘记你
我恨你最后那一句我爱你

最近似乎爱上这首歌了。
对，是旧歌，也是看了星光大道才接触它。
我恨我爱你。。。多么深奥的说法。
爱得这般辛苦，还是继续爱。。。
爱到无法恨你，所以恨自己爱上了你。。。。